Secrets

Jon got up the next morning wide awake and ready for the day a good nights sleep had done wonders for him. He wondered how his buddy felt as he had slept on the couch his long legs hanging off the end. Thankfully Jovi hadn't been there to sleep on him. He snickered as he headed out of the room. He wondered if Shan was up maybe they could get breakfast and go for a walk. He was shocked when he got up to see Richie sitting in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee but Shanna was no where in sight. “Hey swing man … Shan take a walk without me...” he grabbed a cup of coffee and set across from him

Richie looked up from the paper “no.... “ he pushed his hair back from his face. “She got up had some orange juice but looked a bit peeked. I think she called her mom and then went back to bed. She said she wasn't feeling so well so I let her be...” He sighed “i was going to wake you up but she told me to let you sleep …. that she was fine...” He explained before Jon jumped him for not waking him up.

Jon headed up the stairs to check on her when he saw Kali sitting on her daughters bed stroking her hair. Shanna's face was pale and tired curled in a ball her head resting on the pillows. Her face was scrunched up in pain he could see cord going under the blankets “Sweetheart are you alright...” He moved to the bed startling both of them as they hadn't heard him come into the room.

Kali looked up from tending to her daughter “she'll be fine Jon she just needs to rest right now …. just women issues...” She smiled at him tucking the blankets up around her daughter's chin. She stood up and escorted Jon out of the room looking back at her daughter who gave Jon a pale smile as she closed her eyes.

“Mom's right Jon its just something I deal with I promise I be okay in a couple days. Can you do me a favor and take Jovi for a walk for me...” She winced again as she tried so bad to hide just how much pain she was in as to not worry him. She closed her eyes as he went around her mom and knelt by her bed brushing her hair from her face “I promise Jon I am okay ...” She opened them again to look at him. She forced herself to smile at him. “last night was so wonderful …. it was the best birthday I had ever had...” She whispered. “its nothing you did or the food …. just one of those things I promise I'll be up and around in couple days.”

“you sure you don't want me to sit with you baby...” Jon asked as he kept stroking her hair. He hated to see her in pain something was wrong and he wanted to make it all better though he didn't know how. “I don't have any plans … and I want to spend the day with you ….' He leaned up to kiss her forehead.

“No I'll be fine I promise you and Rich go have some fun all I am going to do is sleep ...” She gave him another smile though he could tell it was forced. “I promise … mom's here and I'm tired...” She bit her lip as another cramp hit.

“if you're sure ...” he hated the idea of leaving her here but she seemed adamant that she didn't want him to stay . He got a tired nod before giving her another kiss on the forehead to take Jovi out for a walk. He knew he felt she was hiding something but he wasn't going to push just yet. He looked back towards the room where Kali had shut the door behind him. He was just coming down the stairs when Caleb was coming up them carrying a bag. His eyebrows raised “man what's going on... I just got told to leave....IS Shan okay?” He was just a tad irked and worried. “She was fine after our date last night tired but okay....”

Caleb looked at the door then at Jon “let me drop this off with my mom and Shan … we need to take a walk...” He knew he was probably going to get hell from his mom but Jon really cared about Shan and he deserved his questions answered. He just wasn't sure what he was going to tell the singer without breaking his sisters trust. 

 

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I looked up as the door opened ready to tell Jon to go again when my brother slipped into the room carrying a bag with him. I closed my eyes again letting my mom rest the heating pad on my stomach I felt so weak and tired. I would feel like this for at least a week the curse of being a woman mom used to call it when it first started. Now she worried any time I had my cycle. It would leave me in bad shape each time it would hit. Not even normal pain killers would help when it hit. My doctor had prescribed Norco whenever I had it. A few times I had bled so badly that I had to have a transfusion but that had been in my teens there had been hope as I got older it wouldn't be as bad that maybe I would slowly grow out of it. Unfortunately that didn't happen so each time it hit I would be bedridden for a week while I didn’t move too much. Some days when I had it I had wished I had taken Doctor Vanicee advice and had the surgery. But if I did that I would never have a chance at children my greatest wish to have kids of my own would be gone. I would rather suffer through the pain just to have a little one that was just mine one day. I sat up with my mom''s help as Caleb put the bag on my lap. He looked like he was arguing with himself over something “Cal what's wrong...” I took the pills with the water that mom got me.

“how much does Jon know?” he asked out of the blue.

“what do you mean ...” I stared at him wondering if he meant what I thought he did.

“how much does he know about what is wrong with you...” He asked “he cares a lot abut you Shanna … have you ever told him....” His eyebrows raised. “he's worried as hell right now and he knows your hiding something.... he just cornered me outside on the stairs …. don't you think you should tell him...”

“Caleb its a woman thing you know that I am not about to go telling him about that...” My face flushed scarlet. “besides its my business ….. its nothing to worry about …..” I glared at him “so you don't go around spreading stuff around …. “

“SHAN damn it …. its not just …. if you don't tell him something I will.... I mean it …. he knows there is a problem .. it was written all over his face....” He paced in the room. “he just took your dog for a walk but if you don't ...”

“sweetheart maybe you should sit down with Jon and tell him … I am sure he would be understanding you know you aren't going to be up to dong anything for the rest of the week … and didn't you tell me yesterday he had to head back off on a small tour … at the end of the week.... wouldn't you want you to spend time with him...” My mom sat on the edge of the bed, her voice soft. “he knew something was wrong sweetheart .. he didn't want to leave I could tell ...”

“I don't want to talk about this ….” I shook my head “I just want to sleep ...” I buried under the blankets I couldn't talk to Jon about this I just couldn't. It was not even something that Anna knew about really. She knew I had a hard time around the time of the month but she didn't know how bad it got. I closed my eyes shutting the conversation down. Hoping that both my mom and brother would take the hint. Somehow I knew that Caleb hadn't.