The explosion

Caleb watched as his sister blocked them both out effectively ending the conversation right then and there. She could be so damn stubborn when she wanted. But then so could he, he looked at his mom then back at his sister. “I need to talk to Jon I told him I would talk to him...” He pulled his mom to the side. “it's not right Mom.... he cares a lot about her … he's worried sick about her I could tell he cornered me as I was coming up the stairs. He may be a rock start but he's far from stupid.” He ran a hand through his hair “but what the hell do I tell him?” He looked back at his sister's pale face. “I can't tell him nothing … is wrong because we both know there is something wrong …. even if she wants to hide it from him.”

Kali looked at her son then back at Shanna “you can't break your sisters trust Caleb …. if she wants him to know she'd...”

He cut her off. “if she was going to tell him she would have by now mom …. I am not going to tell him everything but just a sort of I don't know what I’m going to tell him but I have to tell him something. “ He leaned down kissing Shanna's cheek as the meds had knocked her to sleep. He headed down the stairs where Richie was sitting by himself “I take it Jon took Jovi on a walk...”

Richie looked up from his coffee “yep .. said he would meet you outside … everything cool man?”

Caleb snorted “yeah real cool yeah …. “ He headed outside grabbing his coat he spotted Jon sitting with a cigarette in his hand and Jovi's lead in the other. He looked really pissed off He really was ticked off at his sister for keeping this a secret from Jon it was not something small it was something she was and had dealt with all her life how the hell did he get put into this damn position. He ran a hand through his hair “Jon can we talk?” He set down on the bench next to the singer.

Jon nodded his posture rigid he was really ticked off. Don't get him wrong he did love Shanna but she was keeping something from him. Something big he could feel it down into his bones. She had been fine last night enjoying herself then this morning he swallowed so looked so small in that bed and she was in pain damn it she was in so much pain and was hiding it from him. “Tell me the truth Caleb I am a grown man …. I know somethings wrong with her ….” He turned to look at him.

Caleb grimaced he would rather face down a bank robber or a man with a gun than do this. He rubbed his face with his hand “I rather do this somewhere private lets take Jovi back to the house then we can talk ….” He looked at Jon.

Jon's gut clenched if he wanted to do this in private it was a lot more serious than he thought. He nodded as they headed back to the house Richie looked up as they came in and took that as his cue to get up. He looked at Jon as if asking if he wanted to stay when Jon shook his head. He grabbed his coat and headed out but not before putting his hand on Jon's shoulder giving it a squeeze.

Caleb grabbed two shot glasses and set them down on the table along with grabbing the whiskey from under the cabinet where he kept it when he was staying at his sisters. He set it down on the table. He went upstairs to make sure that his mom and his sister didn’t' need anything before heading back to sit across from Jon. Jon for all his anger was just staring at the shot glasses. He sat back down across from Jon and poured two shots on the table one he downed himself. “what I am going to tell you can't go any further ….. “ He sighed “if you have to tell Richie then fine but NOT anything further...” He really wished he didn't have to do this . He wished his sister had been truthful to Jon. It wasn't like she was lying she just hadn't told him the whole truth. It was one reason why she never really got with anyone truly that and not really been much of an out going person. Which was why it was such a shock that she had shown such and Jon had shown such interest in her.

Jon downed the shot in front of him and looked at Caleb feeling like a cold fist had closed around his chest. “is she dying?” His voice broke in the middle.

Caleb's head snapped up. “what?”

“is your sister dying is that why she's in so much pain damn it Caleb I could see it on her face is that why when I first started to be attracted to her she was trying to push me away....” Jon's voice was soft.

“NO … good lord no … Jon.... “ Caleb shook his head “she's not …. well … damn how the fuck do I explain this to you ….”

“then what the fuck is going on.... I don't like being Lied to man …..” Jon nearly exploded the only reason he didn't was knowing that Shanna was upstairs sleeping and in pain.

“she's not dying .. but she's not well either …. see its like this Jon ….” He took a deep breath and explained what the hell was happening. God help him his sister was going to kill him when she found out what he did and what he told Jon but he was not going to keep this secret from the singer any longer. He could tell the singer genuinely loved his sister knew they hadn't said in so many words But something just told him that Jon wasn't a fling a pass through. He was there for the long haul. He waited while Jon sat there taking in everything he said. He could tell that the singers hands were shaking a bit. He poured Jon another shot but the singer pushed it away from himself and shook his head. “Jon...”

“why?”

“why what?” Caleb asked this time he was the one that was confused.

“why didn’t' she tell me this herself why keep it …. to herself ...you said it gets bad enough sometimes she's hospitalized … what would have happened when I had called or dropped by … and she wasn't here only to find out she was in the hospital does she think I wouldn't care....” Jon's voice raised a bit.

Caleb sighed “shit Jon not even ANNA knows about this …. the only ones that do is my mom and I ...Kam only knows that sometimes her aunt gets sick ….” He ran a hand through his hair “She didn't want me to tell you but I was not going to leave you in the dark you seem to really care about my sister and ….”

“FUCK Caleb I LOVE HER... “ Jon spat trying to control his mounting anger but it wasn't helping. “I I need to take a walk...” He grabbed his coat and headed out of the house. He shut the door with a slam causing the door to Shanna's room to open and his mom peak her head out.

“Caleb was that Jon?” Her voice worried.

He nodded “yeah Mom.... he's not too happy right now...” He stated softly he wasn't happy himself or with himself but he knew when Shanna found out she was going to kill him.

 “what did you do?” Kali came down the stairs her eyes spearing him where he sat her voice worried.

“I told him everything god help me ma I told him everything and I don't know if he'll come back after it... he's angry but he's hurt mom....” He looked at his mom. “he's angry really angry he had to leave … but I could tell he was hurt just by the way his voice broke.” He downed the shot he had offered Jon. “god help us … mom I don't know who's going to be worse off from this my sister or....” he sighed “Jon.” 

Meanwhile Jon was storming out of the house he needed to get away from the house before he blew up bigger than he already had. He nearly knocked over Richie in his bid to get away from the house. His best friend and Wing man stood outside smoking a cigarette. He took a deep breath his hand running through his hair he had to getaway from the house 'man I need a drink a walk something ...”

Richie stared at him he'd never seen his best friend this worked up before but he nodded and grabbed his keys out of his pocket before heading to the car. They took off. He looked at Jon his face creased with worry. “what is it man talk to me.... what's going on... that must have been some serious shit that talk had been about for you to go off like this ….”

Jon shook his head “I don't want to talk about it right now give me a minute.” They kept driving.