Love me back to life

The next few days were no different than usual except Jon never left my side I tried to tell him to leave but now that he knew what was going on. Until I felt well enough to leave my room he sat in the room with me. He brought his guitar in with him and just sat there playing and tinkering with it or sitting cuddled on the bed with me. Those times were wonderful I felt awful and just wanted to sleep but with him there I wanted to stay awake to talk to him. I still wasn't talking to my brother angry for him betraying my trust. Jon tried to talk me into talking to him but I refused.

 

As for Jon and I well while I was laid up like this there wasn't much to do but talk. He wouldn't even let me go downstairs to get anything to eat he even tried to carry me down the stairs. If I hadn't been so annoyed it would have been comical but finally I just gave in and let him do what he wanted. If it was one thing I learned about Jon he was stubborn as hell. Finally after the first couple days the pain started to ease but I was still weak and had to take it easy. I had another doctors appointment where we talked about what we could do to help this. Once again Doctor Brennan brought up the one subject I refused to contemplate. I was not going to give up any chance I had of having kids for anything. To my surprise Jon supported my decision when I told him. He was even more shocked that I actually told him about the Doctors appointment and what the doctor had told me. I guess the talking to he gave me while we were in my room made me realize that I had been wrong about keeping this from him. Yes it was my body but also if I cared about Jon I couldn't keep secrets from him. The man told me everything so it was only right. 

 

A couple days after my doctors appointment it was time for Jon to leave again. Richie had come back and we had a quiet diner I was going to miss him. We promised to talk on the phone and write letters. I also made him a promise to take it easy while he was gone. He had gotten quite worried which was a shock not used to having anyone but my brother and mom worry about me. I saw him off kissing him gently and laying my head against his chest. It seemed to be harder for him to leave then usual I looked up at him being shorter than him had some real disadvantages. “I will be okay Jon … you need to go work on your record and you have to finish the last leg of this tour …. “ I looked over at Richie “and you need to make sure you take care of him for me ….”

 

Richie saluted me “you got my promise … come on Kidd we need to really get going ….” he walked over to give me a hug “ “we'll see you when we get all this done … maybe we will bring Tico and Dave around …. “ he also gave my mom a hug we watched as they left.

After they left life as I knew returned to normal I went back to working at Jake’s and spending time with my god daughter. She was growing like a weed. I finished my classes doing my midterms via my computer concentrating on my classes to get rid of feeling so lonely. While I missed Jon immensely I needed to finish my courses so that I could get out of this town someday.

 

We would call each other every night and talk for hours I even got to talk to Dave and Tico. They seemed to be nice guys. Each night after we closed down on the phone we would each wait for each other to shut off the phone. I know it was corny but I had never felt so cared and loved for before. Sure my mom and brother and even Kami loved me but it wasn't the same. Like I said it was like a romance like my mom and dad had and it was wonderful. I also promised him that I would not keep him in the dark about anything anymore which was a test for me. I never really had to think about anyone but myself when it came to things going on with me.

While I worked on classes Jon was back in the studio with the boys working on their next big album. While he was in the studio I did my best not to call him during the day knowing that he would be massively busy but he still called me at night. He sounded but tired telling me about the new material that was coming out for this one. He sounded so enthusiastic abut it sometimes at night that I would just sit back and listen to him. It was great to hear him happy about it.

 

It was about three months after he had left when trouble started happen. I had been always irregular. Sometimes going months without my cycle happening. To end up having it twice a month. I knew that this time would be a bad one. I hadn't been hospitalized in awhile but I had a bad feeling about this time. I had told him I hadn't been feeling good lately so our talks had been very short at night. Between classes and Jon in the studio we both were busy. He was worried about me when I told him I hadn't been feeling good but there wasn't much he could do he had to get the album done the RC was on his back about it. He had told me he would call me later he was in some talks with the record company . So I didn't call him that day. I had gone up to go to work when I felt dizzy I looked down and saw that I had soaked through my clothes. I swallowed putting my hand to head the last thought I had before I hit the floor was I was going to be late to work.