Confrontation 2

Shanna heard her mom leave and took a deep breath trying to drag all her pride back into her body though she felt like crumpling in a heap on the floor or on the bed. She swallowed and moved to turn to face him moving her glasses back on her face her hands shaking she forced them to stop. She knew that Caleb said he was angry when he left so she would take his anger like a grown woman not a scared rabbit. She slid up against her pillows. She was going to sit up she was going to stand up and let him blast her. She reached out to grab and throw her blankets off when he moved forward and stopped her. She stared up into deep blue eyes. She swallowed almost drowning in that gaze. His hand encompassed hers she couldn't look away from his gaze it was locked onto hers. She could see deep into his eyes like she couldn't look away. She half hardheartedly tugged at the blanket trying to get him to let go.

Jon didn't release her hand but moved closer moving the blankets back up around her waist.
“if you are going to yell at me at least let me stand up while you do it...” She stated finally.

“not going to and your going to stay right where you are...” He said flatly.

“listen here...” She started only for Jon to hold up his hand.

“no this time you are going to listen Shanna … and please do not interrupt me....” Jon stated softly staring into her face. His voice had a ridge of steel in it like he was controlling his temper. He stood up and ran a hand through his hair. He paced back and forth. “Do I give you this feeling of like I don't care Shanna … that I wouldn't care if something happened to you?”

She looked at him “no..”

“then why why wouldn't you tell me about this …. why would you hide it from me ….. “ he looked at her the hurt radiating from his eyes “why would you purposely keep this from me …. to the point your brother has to tell me .. I thought we weren't going to keep secrets anymore..... you know everything about me why would you keep something like this a secret... don't I deserve...” he was cut off

“deserve? You think this is about you Jon … its not … its far from it.. this is my body my decision .. .Caleb had no right to tell you ….. you've never gone through this … you've never had your body be in so much pain you can't function ….. scared to death because you might end up in the hospital again for something that is supposed to be a normal part of being a woman … terrified that it might cause you to never have the one thing you want in your life a child so don't TELL ME …' she yelled at him. “don't tell me about you deserving to know because it wasn't your RIGHT to know ….. “ She tried to get out of the bed again only for Jon to stop her. Her whole body was radiating with anger. “let me go...”

“No...” Jon shook his head and set on the chair by the bed. “but why..... why wouldn't you tell me …. “

“I just told you why …. this is something very personal something not even my best friend Anna knows about …..” She tugged at the blanket but didn't have the energy to wrench it back from him. The pain pills she took earlier starting to wear off pain was now residing back in her body and feeling like the insides of her were being torn apart. She looked away from him wrapping an arm around her waist trying so hard not to cry out in pain.

'Shanna …. you aren't going to push me away...” Jon stated flatly.

“There you go again thinking this is about you Jon are you really that narcissistic that you think that everything revolves around YOU it has nothing to bloody DO with you ….it has to do with me and my body and what I go through … “ she growled.

Jon watched her his face creased with worry, he reached his hand out and took the one clenched on the bed rubbing his fingers over the knuckles not surprised to see it shaking. “Shan...” His voice soft filled to the brim with worry. “Shan are you okay....” The words from her brother earlier about her being in a lot of pain and nearly collapsing came rushing back to him. He could see her whole body suddenly tensed up. “Shan are you in pain do you need something. ...”

“no....” She lied.

He snorted “right … its not like I can't see your whole body shaking right now love.....” He started to rub gently her arm and then her back when she started to pull away from him he just moved closer practically sitting on the bed. He put his hand on her back feeling just how tense the muscles were there rubbing slowly in circles his finger tips gently massaging in a circle. Ever so slowly he wrapped his arms around her sighing with relief when she didn't immediately shove him away. “now tell me the truth do you need something …. do you need me to get your mom....” He sighed with relief again when she just nodded he got up and kissed the top of her head tucking the blanket around her moving to go out the door. He peaked out from the door catching sight of Kali sitting at the table downstairs “Kali … Shan needs some kind of pain meds …. do you know where they are she's in pain....”

Kali looked up to see Jon standing there thankfully he was not leaving the room like she thought might happen. “her pain meds are on the stand by her bed …. I'll be right up with some soup for her hopefully you can get her to eat … we've tried...” she shook he head.

Jon nodded and headed back into the room' She's coming in with some soup for you....” He knew this was far from over but right now his main priority was making sure Shanna was comfortable and not in pain. He found the pill bottle on the table and took two out handing her the water on the stand.

She started to refuse the pills but gave in when he didn't back down. She knew she had to take them her body hurt to much not to. She sighed she also knew this was far from over but right now she was just too tired to argue. “thank you...”

He sat on the bed by her and pulled her into his arms once again thanking that she was not resisting him. He shook his head “no thanks needed babe...” He relaxed against the back of the bed regretting that he would have to leave her in a couple days. Ths time leaving would be a hell of a lot harder.