Chapter 26 I want you

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I was walking out of the room when Jon grabbed my arm.

“Shanna can I talk to you?”

I looked around “Sure...” I shrugged “I guess...” I saw Richie walking my mom out of the hospital and headed that way before Jon took me to the side. I wasn't sure what this was about. I still wasn't happy with him or my mom with what they pulled in the waiting room. I pulled my arm from his grasp when we got outside. Leaning against the wall I looked at him. “what do you want to talk about?” I folded my arms across my chest giving him my hardest glare. He and my mother had no right to do what they did in there. I wasn't going to make this easy on him at all. I asked him and I asked my mom not to do this but they just forgo my wishes and did what they wanted.

“I know you're mad at me .. and probably your mom... but we were trying to help … we both know how bad it got sometimes with those two .. and I know Mr Williams... he'll make it stop or keep it from starting up again. I know you're mad .. but I hope you understand we only did it to protect you .. to keep you safe....I won't apologize for doing the right thing Shanna...” He stood there with his hands in front of him.

I kept glaring at him. “you didn't have a right to do that Jon … it was my business... it was me they did it to … I asked you in there to drop it but you didn't.....I asked you both to stop but you didn't...You can't just come back here .. and act like the big ole white knight … and then drive off without another thought...I live in this town … I have to deal with these people day after day. . “ I spat.

“Is that what you thought I did?” Jon stared at me. “you thought I just drove of without thinking about you again... oh Shanna that is the exact opposite of what happened...” He shook his head pacing trying to find a way to explain to me. “I haven't STOPPED thinking about you since I left... every damn day.. I thought about you on the way home I thought about ...” he sighed “I thought about that kiss … the way you smelled … the way you looked when you came down the stairs before the dance .. your laugh the great talks we had … night after night..” he ran his hand through his hair. “most of all I thought about you … I couldn't stop....”

I stared at him opened mouth and in complete shock. I thought I was hearing things or this was a dream. This could NOT be happening, he could not being saying these things to me. I ran a hand through my own hair “STOP .. just stop..” I shook my head but I couldn't go any further. My voice broke as I bit my lip cutting off his tirade. I put my hands in my face “Please don't ...” This had to be some kind of joke. Okay yeah he had kissed me and it had been the most wonderful thing in my world. I had never been kissed before ever and it felt like the world had stopped turning when he did. Then he just left, no turning back he didn't' look back he just got into his car and left. “You expect me to believe that … since you left town .. that all you been thinking about is me?!” I shook my head “I don't believe you … you got into your car and you left … I know you had to … but you never looked back come on Jon you have a thousand gorgeous girls at your beck and call EVERY night...why would you give one thought to me... yes I know you write to my niece but that's my niece which I am thankful for … it gives her something to look forward ...” I was cut off when he moved forward and pressed his lips to mine.

I froze for about a second my eyes widened to about the size of saucers then they slowly closed. I leaned in closer and his hands reached up to bury them in my hair. My arms automatically lifted and wrapped around his neck pulling him closer though in order to do that I had to stand on my tip toes. I didn't want to stop I didn't want it to stop. When I felt his mouth open I was shocked as mine slowly opened to allow his entrance. I felt my knees go weak and his arms lowered to wrap around my waist catching me.. Yet it didn't stop I felt like my whole body was on fire while my heart racing at a mile a minute. I felt a tingle as the kiss continued all the way down to my toes. Soon he broke it off breathing hard. “I don't WANT any of those thousand gorgeous women …. I want YOU ...Shanna .. just you ...” He breathed heavy. “I didn't call because I didn't … “ He ran a hand through his hair “I didn't have your number for one thing .. the other is ..” He chuckled “I was chicken ...”

I stared up at him. “you were afraid to call ME?” My own breath was pretty ragged. “why?”

“the same reason why you got mad at me... I kissed you then I just left I didn't say anything but to call me...which you didn't...”

I blushed “uhm...I kind of did … but ..”

“you did?” He looked at me confused. Then his eyes widened “the restricted number that was you? Why didn't you leave me a message? Or a number to call you back...”

“I was afraid .. I didn't know what to say ...” I pulled away from him “I've never been involved with anyone Jon... and this is this is new to me...” I broke off a tear ran down my cheek. “I didn't know what to say to you … or do … hell I was lost for close to three days after you left … I couldn't concentrate on anything … I screwed up orders at Jake's I never do that... Anna asked me constantly if something was wrong. … I didn't know what to tell her so I told her I was fine.. But I was anything but....I don't know what to do with this feeling Jon... I don't know what this feeling IS!”

Jon took my hand from my face and bent down to look into my face. “Shanna shh its okay ...” He brushed the tears from my face. “its okay... I understand ….really ….” he gave me a small smile. “I … “ He sighed “I don't want to rush you into anything I just wanted you to know I felt … I was hoping you felt the same ...” He chuckled “guess I found out ...” He wrapped his arms around me. “we can take this slow Shanna sweetheart I promise as slow or fast as you want... just …. “ he rested his head on mine. He tilted my head up to look into his eyes “just do you want me.... I mean … do you want this I know it's fast I know its only been what a month like Jake said... but I feel something for you Shanna Leah and I want to see where this goes … do you?”

I bit my lip the feeling of being in his arms giving me such a feeling of warmth of caring and love it sent my senses reeling. I looked into his blue eyes them searching my face. I didn't know what to say. Did I want to find out where a relationship with Jon would take me? Did I want to do this with the chance of being hurt? Yet as I looked into his eyes the sincere feeling that just seemed to come from inside him, I nodded my head “Yeah …. I'd like to see where this leads … but I need to take it slow Jon... “ I whispered “is that okay?”

He leaned down to press a quick kiss to my lips his voice whisper soft. “we can take it as slow or fast as you want it baby...” he brushed the tears from my cheeks pressing his lips afterward to them causing me to close my eyes. The feeling of his lips on my cheeks and by my lips sending red hot fire through my veins. I stepped back after.

I stepped back after a minute to clear my head when I heard someone clear their throat. Turning I saw my mother and Richie standing there. Richie had a big grin on his face his arm over my moms shoulder. She had a smile on her face and tears in her eyes. “momma?”

“Oh I am okay baby..” She moved closer and wrapped me in her arms. “I just want you to be happy I hope you're not mad at me …. or you Jon...”

He looked at her confused “what wait …. Richie you gave her the number didn't you not Jake..” he gave his buddy a dark look but I put a hand on his arm. “oh don't worry Shanna sweetheart I won't kill him but he' and I are going to talk about meddling...” He shot Richie another look but his buddy just shrugged and grinned.

“I had to do something you were driving me damn nuts .. moping all over the fuckin place ...even the guys were noticing …. “ he gave me a grin “you should have seen him... oh man … he couldn't even do anything without mentioning your name..”

“Sambora!” Jon shouted tackling his friend to the ground they wrestled for a few minutes. I had to cover m y mouth laughing never seen this side of the the two. I quickly moved over but Richie quickly had him pinned and was setting on him and started to ruffle his hair.

“now now Shorty .. don't you know I'll beat you every time..” I could hear Jon growling about not calling him that name. “now you going to play nice ...or am I going to have to keep sitting on you...” He shook his head when Jon growled at him again. “what was that?”

“I said YES now get the fuck off me...” Jon growled as Richie helped him stand up and dusted him off. He shoved him shaking his head He sighed rubbing his neck. “damn we are going to have to head back soon we got the show tomorrow..”

I nodded “I'll uhm call you ...” I knew he had to leave again soon as he had the show tomorrow. It just felt sudden as he was there and gone again. I forced a smile to my face letting my mom wrap her arms around me. Why did I feel so cold that he was leaving already.

Jon moved over and tilted my head “come to the concert tomorrow...” He asked quietly. His thumb caressing my cheek bone. IT made my eyes flutter closed that just the touch of his fingers on my face made me feel like this just made me feel so different still shook me to the core.

I took a deep breath opening my eyes “I can't ...” I ran a hand through my hair “I have to work and I don't have the money or tickets...” I was sad I actually would have liked to go. I gave him a small sad smile as he looked sad that I couldn't come.

“why would you have to work I don't think Jake would be opening the shop tomorrow ...” My mom suddenly broke in. “Honey he's going to be here with Anna all day long and their little girl...”

“as for tickets … you don't have to worry about that...” Jon wrapped his arms around my waist again pulling me into his arms. He looked down at me. “you won't need a ticket … I'll have a driver come pick you up... you'll be my guest … come on please...” He gave me a pout causing me to giggle. He nuzzled his face into my neck causing me to shriek a bit “Please don't make me beg .. come to the show .. please...”

I felt self conscious with my mom standing there as Jon pressed a kiss to my forehead. I wanted to go slow with this. Yet I wanted to go to the show I hadn't been since I was a little girl. I looked up into those blue eyes. I had even somehow forgave him for telling Mr Williams about what happened with Jason. Knowing he did it because he cared that he wanted to keep me safe kind of mellowed my anger to the point where I wasn't so upset about it. Yes I still was annoyed about it but for some reason I couldn't stay mad at him. I sighed “I don't have anything to wear.....”

“You don't have to dress up darlin..” Richie stated “jeans and a sweatshirt will be fine ….” He winked “and if you're a good girl maybe Jon will buy you a shirt...” He winced as Jon reached over to punch him in the arm. “hey easy on the merchandise Kidd...” My mom just laughed at them.

“Baby go have fun... I'll walk Jovi for you... “

“oh my god Jovi I forgot about him...” I put my hand to my mouth. “I have to get back to my apartment my poor baby...” I hurried down the road when Jon ran up to grab me. “Jon let go I have to get back to the apartment...”

“Easy I'll drive you besides I'd love to see my favorite pooch...' He pulled me to the car and opened the car leaving Richie and my mom standing in the parking lot. As soon as we got there I unlocked the door my poor dog was scratching at the door. He dove at Jon as soon as he saw him giving him sloppy dog kisses as if he hadn't seen him in a million years. “jovi down..” Jon was laughing ruffling his fur. “come on boy you got to go out I know..” he grabbed the leash snapping it quickly. They were off before I could say anything standing in the doorway of my apartment. Did he just leave me for my dog.....I shook my head locking the door and running after them.

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